You will waste your cancer if you refuse to think about death.
We will all die, if Jesus postpones his return. Not to think about what it will be like to leave this life and meet God is folly. Ecclesiastes 7:2 says, “It is better to go to the house of mourning [a funeral] than to go to the house of feasting, for this is the end of all mankind, and the living will lay it to heart.” How can you lay it to heart if you won’t think about it? Psalm 90:12 says, “Teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom.” Numbering your days means thinking about how few there are and that they will end. How will you get a heart of wisdom if you refuse to think about this? What a waste, if we do not think about death.
DP: Paul describes the Holy Spirit is the unseen, inner ‘downpayment’ on the certainty of life. By faith, the Lord gives a sweet taste of the face-to-face reality of eternal life in the presence of our God and Christ. We might also say that cancer is one ‘downpayment’ on inevitable death, giving one bad taste of the reality of of our mortality. Cancer is a signpost pointing to something far bigger: the last enemy that you must face. But Christ has defeated this last enemy: 1 Corinthians 15. Death is swallowed up in victory. Cancer is merely one of the enemy’s scouting parties, out on patrol. It has no final power if you are a child of the resurrection, so you can look it in the eye.
JG: Cancer has made me look at death. What I see about myself is not pretty. There are fears and attitudes that need to be thought about seriously—things more about the here and now than about what awaits me after death. I have not been one to number my days. I have assumed a long life. I want a heart of wisdom, so I’m asking God to teach me to number my days.
“Cancer is merely one of the enemy’s scouting parties, out on patrol. It has no final power if you are a child of the resurrection, so you can look it in the eye.” I like this sentence. I am a child of the resurrection by God’s grace, so I will look cancer in the eye. Joy. Gladness. Jesus has done so much to make this possible. A verse from In Christ Alone:
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life’s first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man, ( No cancer!)
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand.
Hallelujah, what a hope we have.
On the Greisen Side of Life 
Jane, I don’t comment much but I read all your postings. Please pardon any errors since I am doing this on my phone in the vanpool heading home from work. Thank you Jane for your faithfulness in contending for your peace of mind and to understand God’s point of view about this journey you are on. All of us wonder how we would handle such a set of circumstances. Your.honesty about the fears and ideas you grapple with is challenging. Sometimes.in life and in our walk with God we come up against hard things and we often let those things knock us down. Walking with God is messy business at.times. it encourages me to know how.He has met you in this process. Also, I live “In Christ Alone”. It is an anthem to me and is a.bedrock declaration of faith that has lifted me up. Thanks for sharing it! Russ and I are praying for you.