The days in the hospital were filled with reading. Here’s a poem that I liked by John Newton:
I asked the Lord, that I might grow
In faith, and love, and every grace;
Might more of His salvation know,
And seek more earnestly His face.
I hoped that in some favoured hour,
At once He’d answer my request,
And by His love’s constraining power
Subdue my sins, and give me rest.
Instead of this, He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart;
And let the angry powers of hell
Assault my soul in every part.
Yea more, with HIs own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe;
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Blasted my gourds, and laid me low.
“Lord, why is this?” I trembling cried,
“Wilt thou pursue They worm to death?”
“‘Tis in this way,’ the Lord replied
“I answer prayer for grace and faith.
“These inward trials I employ
From self and pride to set thee free;
And break they schemes of earthly joy,
That thou may’st seek they all in me.”
Beautiful words from the man who said:
“My memory is nearly gone, but I remember two things – that I am a great sinner, and that Christ is a great savior.”
Thank you for sharing the poem, Jane. I am thankful for these updates and will be praying for you this Thursday as you take the next treatment. Grace and strength to you, sister.
with love,
Hilary
Yes, Lord…