God Is Good

A few weeks ago I was in Portland to do a training called Counseling in Community. During this training we provide a “live” lab time where we practice the counseling skills we have just learned. Well, even though I was the facilitator, the gals were curious about my response to the prompt question and so they began to ask me some questions. It was a precious gift from God as it showed me that He indeed has been growing me in my faith during these months of cancer treatment.

The question posed was how to you see God’s faithfulness in the midst of your sin or suffering? I responded tearfully that no matter the ups and downs of my faith or my acceptance of his will in my cancer, he will not let me go. I cannot push him away. I told the gals that I have what I call temper tantrums sometimes directed at God. “I don’t want cancer to be part of my story.” “Why?” “I hate this.” One of the gals asked how God responds to me in my temper tantrums. I responded after a moment’s thought, “like a good father who holds their child close until the tears stop and they calm down.”

As I was journaling these things later, I remembered the Scripture that says, “out of the heart the mouth speaks”. I thought, my mouth was speaking faith, speaking of God’s ways. That was in my heart! Yipee! God has been making himself evident and comforting and caring in new ways and it is in my heart! Out of my heart came faith, awe, belief. Joy.

Thank you, Father, for this opportunity to see what you have put in my heart of you during these months.

This was an evidence of what we were there to teach—-God’s working through the community of believers to bring out what is in the heart. I am so grateful.I pray you have people in your life who ask you questions that help you see your heart.

Grace upon grace to you,

jane